After my initial feelings of hyperness last night, I sort of hit a wall, it came with about 30 minutes left at work. That is to say, my body decided it needed to slow down, but my mind kept racing. I've had a lot of stuff on my mind lately, whether I should move, where I should move, weighing my options on things here in town, trying to decide what I want to start before possibly leaving, and trying to figure out just what the hell Maundy Thursday means. (I first heard of this a couple of days ago, and thought it was "Monday Thursday." A very confusing turn of events for me.) So yeah, I've been a little preoccupied with lots of stuff, even more than I have listed, and that kept me up most of the night. I sort of had that "night before Christmas" feeling I had as a kid, except being excited about opening presents, I was anxious about what the next day would bring, how I would handle situations, and just how I'm going to make it through the next week. Plus, add my reading of The Infinite Book into it, and I'm done. I think that book is a little too deep for me to read quickly, too much philosophical stuff for my mind to comprehend in the state it currently has been maintaining. So the rest of tonight is going to be spent doing laundry (Laundry Thursday? come on, I thought it was funny) and watching a movie, probably Swingers. I love that movie, but haven't watched it for a while. I shall remedy that tonight.
I'll leave you with a quote now, from Swingers, which I think kind of sums up my situation right now. Take it as you will.
I don't want you to be the guy in the PG-13 movie everyone's *really* hoping makes it happen. I want you to be like the guy in the rated R movie, you know, the guy you're not sure whether or not you like yet. You're not sure where he's coming from. Okay? You're a bad man. You're a bad man, Mikey. You're a bad man, bad man.
-Trent "Double Down" Walker
(substitute "Flenker" for Mikey, and "basically everyone" for Trent, and that's my life!)